Asalamualaikum and good morning pada all readers..
erk... nak mula macam mana dan nak cakap apa erk..
now di Malaysia jam sedang menunjukkan waktu pukol 2:45 pagi.
terbangun di pagi hari nie everyday and everywhere jangan lupe ucapkan ALHAMDULILLAH di atas nikmat kehidupan yang masih sempat kita hirup pada waktu dan ketika nya.
alright.
lately i kinda distracted by sort of feeling yang melibatkan romeo dan juliet or adam dan hawa gitu.
and i also kind of di kelilingi dengan kisah perjalanan love membe-membe yang putus harapan or mati akal nak handle kisah dowang.
this situation make me think ALHAMDULILLAH i didn't terjebak dalam sort of thing.
but unfortunatelly perasaan selamat tu dah membuatkan i di uji sekai lagi untuk handle perkara nie.
i don't no..
sometimes i really enjoy the feeling..
u no, the feeling yang macam everything you do you always think bout him, xsabar nak jumpe maya or real, rasa macam terbang di awang-awangan dengan dunia indah ciptaan sendiri, perasaan gelak macam owang sewel everytime baca mesej dari dia..
and i did caught red handed by him.
yes. !
he kinda no it, i dont no.. firasat owang beriman katanya.
and no what? ibu for the first time in my life says this "jangan jual mahal sangat"
wait.. !
did i sale anything ibu?
i jus lol depan ibu dan say "im 21"
and ibu says " nothing wrong with 21.. women do active during this period"
lol.
i really didn't expect mom could say this. she is someone who will always say this back time
" finish your studies first then only you can think bout to be in love.. no love during studies including university"
oh man . !
mom never give me chance to be in love,
but then if a guy ever approach me, i'll bring them home to know my parents, apparently he'll stop knowing me after i bring them home.
i don't no. may be because he is not my faith.
ok, lets go back to the feeling-feeling things.
right,
he kinda caught me red handed but yes, i don't no him that much.
i only no him by name. and yes. that's all.
and let me clear this thing up.
i ever.. i repeat EVER.. againt E.V.E.R in love..
dan sebelum nie pown i ever try dengan one guy. and no what?
i made a mistake by "WANNA TRY" at the end i end up "HEARTBROKEN"
not that much. but yes, its still SAKIT KOWT.
but ALHAMDULILLAH..
i kinda positive thinking and ALHAMDULILLAH to nikmat IMAN dan ISLAM
make me always think i do always have SOMEBODY who always love me.. and yes. HE is my LORD.
mesti dah pening-pening lalat korang baca.. HE and he berbeza ye readers.
HE - dear ALLAH
he- man of course.
and no what?
i xnak terjebak lagi dalam dunia khayalan ciptaan manusia dan tiupan anging kelekaan dari syaitan laknatullah.
and i decided to take this step. i mean yes. DEACTIVATED
then only i can concentrated pada life and my stuff
do anybody ask,
boleyh ke tengah feeling-feeling than stop?
i'll say.. its hard.
human nature kan..
but kuatkan diri untuk letak gap dan serahkan semuanya pada ALLAH.
jangan terus layan perasaan tu sebab nanti kalau kecewa bukan semua manusia boleyh handle kecewa dengan baik. here, i just nak tekankan kita xtau sapa kite punye mate. so jangan terus hanyut dengan cinta yang xpasti hujung pangkal.
im not that ISLAMIC thinking and so what ever..
i just be rational and positif. betul kan?
bercinta bagai nak rak. then putus then kowang rasa nak bunuh diri.
com'on. benda boleyh cegah kowt dari awal..
bukan xboleyh nak bercinta.. tapi xyah la emo sangat sampai sume putus kowang pown nak bunuh diri.
wajib dah kene ikat dengan tali sauh kowang nie.
and during this deactivation period,
i gonna be busy.
and hopefully time will heal everything.
sangat jarang untuk i sebut nama lelaki dalam doa i sebab i rasa malu dan rasa xperlu.
but this time.. untuk kali yang jarang-jarang. i sebut nama dia..
dan ALHAMDULILLAH hati sangat tenang.
sebab i yakin..
ALLAH KNOW THE BEST.
guys,
this is my answer pada u all punye Question
"how do i handle to be in love, to be rejected, to reject, and to handle heartbroken."
hope you all did the same thing by not that weak and do be positive. !
p/s my blog ada tracker. jadi i know readers dari mana. ahaks. !