LEARN

in order to be matured

you have to learn

learn from the mistake

learn from others

i realised lots

i gained lots.

but sometimes it does not change anything

as i said before

take times

sometimes i miss my previous life

i used to ran away

go far away from the source of my problem

if it was come from home,

i might spend sometimes outside

but now

im stuck here

not the origin of the problem

but the place where the problem should be solve

i juz have to find the way

but how?

find myself or wait till it come it self???

look,

i cant run away

but i wish i could.

i dont want to see everybody who i respect the most

is all about my mistake

at the same time i dont want to go out from here and face

with another problem

rather that stuck than create

create what?

ANOTHER PROBLEM

of course

what am i babling about???

i just wanna said

i want some place for myself

and

i want

sometime for myself

no body can come in and distract.

juz a word

there is no such thing.!

AGAINT..~

we juz have a talk.
he told me a bit bout his pass.
i said ITS EASY
he said that is for you sis.

let me list it down

• bullied
• treason
• drugs
• club
• etc

i juz said ITS EASY
he ask me its sin right?
i said yes..

if  i answer this way to people who juz learn some manner in ISLAM,
there might bluurr and confused.
y i said this huge mistake n sin as easy n nothing.?

why..???
its easy when you yourself already realised that it is a mistake
or may be it was a mistake
or may be it were your mistake

different situation if you yourself said that its easy.
in that condition i might said that it is serius.
serius when you dont even realised that  its a mistake..!

however,
in this situation or in our condition,
you juz have to take sometimes to change.
you have to deal with yourself  to change and to be good.

it is easy to change yourself rather than change others.
juz take your time
it will come someday.
dont stop..
dont  give up..

STANDING ON THE PROBLEM

yesterday i log into someone blog.
i read it.
normally i dont as i hate to no bout others life..
she wrote bout her terible life.
she lost her boyfie.
things that make me keep reading was how
she descrice n express her love.
she split all her sadness through her blog.
she say out loud how she love n will always love her late boyfie.
she was 16 n her late boyfie is 17.
they are too young.
this situation make me thing in two different way.
 first -ve ..! social life..
2nd, +ve..! love..n rasional.
though she was so sad, she still managed to control herself.
she didnt do any rediculous..
she juz fine.. seems fine..she can keep smiling..
she standing on her problem not  the problem standing on her..
that was so me before..

y do i say so?
the previous me was the kind who
take problem as a challenge for myself..
and the previous me was someone who

STANDING ON THE PROBLEM..

but now,
im the one who fear of challenge and so -ve.

i've talk to mummy fazue..
as usual..
she burn the spirit..

*if, all the lecture +ve as you are, i dont need to skip my class anymore..*

* wink*wink*

i just hope i can come back to normal and stand up.

no you are so cannot becoming like this.

OPEN YOUR EYES HEART AND MIND..

as easy as that.

OPPORTUNITY

sometimes there is a time that u have to regret something
in order to get something else
which is better or worst.

who want to be the worst?
NO BODY!!!!
but u never no either your choice lead to better or worst
so, that is so call OPPORTUNITY.

you have to choose.
choose for tomorrow..
where can i said as the worst start from the moment u choose.

i hate when i come to this situation
things that u never want it
but it comes to you.
in ISLAM sometimes its call as TEST.
a test from the lord toward its slave..

there is a Quote : 
tidak di datangkan sesuatu ujian itu melainkan terselit hikmah bersamanya
dan tidak ditangkan ujian itu melainkan tanda cinta ALLAH untuk hambanya"

either u believe or not,
i am at that junction.
where i have to choose
there is no turning back.
either :

•  i proceed or i regret
• either i Quit and im free

if i choose option 1, i might 

• facing a lot of trouble
• sometimes there is no time for myself
• learn a lot of new thing
• having another family
• will know what is the "hikmah" behind

if i choose option 2, i might

• run a away from lots of people n problem
• have plenty time for myself
• no trouble
• chance to make another MISTAKE
• no challenge

so,

there are  pro n cont..

both give me back worst n good..

believe it or not,

if u not choose,

the oppurtunity will choose u.

there is no way to escape.

scary n creepy if u think it deeply.

LOVE ~

MAAF..!
kesibukan terlampau
sampai saya lupa

ITS YOUR BIRTDAY..

nevermind,
i'll replace it with something later..

kamu segalanya..!

mungkin xperlu terlalu memaparkan siapa mereka.

haha.

LIKE CRAZY

weekend yang sangat hatic..

bermula pada jumaat petang 

hingga lah

hari ini

sabtu 

jam 12 tengah malam

KEMAHIRAN INSANIAH

wajib

silibus baru

bermula intake lepas

macam xtaw nak cakap ape

huh.!

aktiviti indor yang sangat bosan.

ok, crop it.!

aktiviti outdoor yang sangat 

HEAVEN...!!!

sukaneka

macam da lame xbuat

dan saya sertai acara 

passing belon kebelakang dan lompat dalam guni

bayangkan

wah..!

teruja

lari macam kanak-kanak tadika

pape pown dapat no 2

keseluruhan..!

not bad.

malam sabtu :

dinner..

sorry to say

sangat xmemuaskan

apa pown syabas pada mereka yang terlibat

terutama roomates

die sangat penat.

sangat kasihan.

p/s

maaf xdapat upload pic.

sume focus muke..

WAITING

berbuka bersama

ROOMATES..!!!

huhu..

tik..tok..tik..tok..

jam berdetik..

kelas da habis.

tunggu depan bendahari..

tik..tok..tik..tok..

sms : 

zara, kat mane??

-surau

zara,kat mane

-depan syahbandar

*beberapa minit kemudian*

-kak, depan bendahara la

ok

tik..tok..tik..tok..

-kak, da berjanggut

ok, da sampai.

naek kereta n bergelak ketawa.

hujan pown turun.

p/s

memori da penuh selama menanti ketibaan ROOMATES..

penuh dengan pic yang baru di snap oleyh miezah

manifestasi kami..

lain nya

pandangan kami

halangan kami

penantian kami

kepura-puraan kami

MARKETING

madam : class... bla..bla..bla...

-behind-
mieza : ur fone..(snap pic,snap pic)
me : laughing like crazy
ija : posing..posing

madam : yes miezah, anything to share..
miezah : errrrr...
me : we are EXCITED..!!!- tibe2 je-, yeah the car..shaher accident naek fair lady..
fit : die lupe makan ubat tu madam 
madam : ok clas continue..
me : gile ko..!, kalaw kantoi tadi
miezah : fone ko la nie..
me : sigh..~
madam : yes sha..
me : ha..?????!!

advertising..advertising..advertising...

MONSTER

Balik kelas mengadap die

kalaw de pape cakap dengan die

tidur malam pelokx die

buat assigment dengan die

tengok movie bersama dia

sebelom gi kelas cium die

pendek kate semua die

aha,

his eyes sangat same dengan mata me..

WHITE HORSE

Say your sorry that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time cuz I honestly belived in you
Holdin on the days drag on
Stupid girl I should've known I should've known

(Chorus)
Im not a princess
This aint a fairytale
Im not the one you'll sweep off her feet lead her up the stairwell
This aint hollywood
This is a small town
I wuz a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your white horse to come around

Baby I was neive got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance
Well my mistake I didn't know to be in love you had to fight to have the upperhand
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings now I know

(Chorus)
That im not a princess this aint a fairytale im not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This aint hollywood
This is a small town
I wuz a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your white horse to come around

And there u areon your knees
Beggin for forgivness
Beggin for me
Just like I always wanted
But im so sorry

cuz im not your princess this aint a fairytale im gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world
It wuz a small town
There in my rearview mirror dissappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse to catch me now

Oh oh oh oh oh try and catch me now
Its too late
To catch me now

MOOD

hari  nie 

mood saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaangat baek

haha..

bangun pagi terus mandi n makan.

n basuh baju n on9.

kerana kebosanan saya

telah mengeluarkan diri

dan memanjakan diri di saloon

nak cari spa susah

so gi saloon je la

wat rambut.

eh bukan,

basuh rambut.

haha

akk kate rambut nipis n banyhak gugur

agak la..

problem banyak la kak..

dah tu balik kampus asyik nak melantak je

mane xnye

box makanan macam xluak isinya

beli tapi xmakan

• maggie 3 paxk besar
• biskut lebih 5 jenis
• teh susu 1 pack besar xbukak lagi
• nesvita 3 pack
• susu kambing 2 kotak
• tuna tin 1 
• perencah nasi goreng 1 tapawear
• minuman koko 1 tin
• kismis
• gula- gula 1 balang n 1 pack

wah,

ko nak niaga ke ape nie?

haha

pape pown 

saya happy dengan cara saya

BONGOKX..~

malam nie sangat banyak naik status di fb

dan jugakx di sini da banyak entry da bebel di sini

-dah pagi da sebenarnye-

SAYA ~

suke gile :

• tidur
• termenung
• bercakap
• marah-marah
• ketawa
• budget cun
• sms
• on call
• on da road
• rosak kan kereta (xkire sapa punye)
• shopping 
• on9
• movie
• lelaki hensem (tengok je)
• camera (suke snap pic sendiri)
• blog (of course)
• membaca (semua benda)
• jam tangan yang besar
• kemeja dan jeans
• bergurau dengan adik bujang saya
• lepakx di mall
• menulis (now menaip)
• pelokx monster
• tidur dengan 4 5 bantal
• makan dengan sudu
• goyang kaki sebelum, semasa tido (tabiat)

eh,

kalaw nak cite 2 page pown cukup..!

XSUKE ~

• lelaki yang bising bile ikot aku shopping
• bile baju ade wane pink (rasa nak bakar)
• terpaksa makan dengan tangan (kebuluran la aku)
• suruh masak waktu aku tengah tidur
• fone hilang pagi2 bute (absent minded)
• terpaksa lari nak gi kelas (lambat bangun la tu)
• cermin mata hilang malam2 hari (sakit taw x)
• suroh aku tidur bila aku xnak
• pakaian orang lain same dengan aku (rase nak koyakkan je )
• laptop wat hal waktu tengah on9
• fone hang waktu dengan music
• sebut nama aku waktu aku tidur (terus terjaga)
• call waktu aku tidur (mule la aku merapu)
• panjat tangga tun merah
• nasi lembik
• ikan keli,belut
• tempat ramai orang (pasar)
• banding kan aku dengan pempuan lain (da lame idop ke)

banyak lagi tapi kang xterbaca pulakx..

hahaha..!

TERUJA

sangat teruja bila taw dia akan ke sini

Fall in love pada lagu pertama

KIYA KARO

buka mata saya tentang dia

now sangat xnak lepaskan peluang untuk lihat kamu dari dekat

semoga sukses selalu

tiket xmahal pown

lokasi sangat dekat

saya nak pegy juga

kumpul duit raya dari sekarang

ahhaha

(evil laugh)

ALAMAKX..!

adoyaie..
Cam mane nak balik kampus nie..
banyak barang xde..

• TUDUNG - xbeli lagi
• BISKUT - da habis
• WHITE COFFEE - habis
• COMPACT POWDER - almost habis
• PERFUME- almost habis
• BROOCH - banyak da rosak
• MASKARA - da nak habis
• EYE LINER - da nak habis
• BEG - da jemu pakai
• KASUT - jemu, tapi ok lagi

adoyaie..

but sume tu kehendak bukan keperluan

hehehe..

but pape pown thanks to aie.. 

4 the ticket bus.

ITS TIME

went out from this house
gasping some fresh air outside
and go around... and around and around
with him
my soul...my all..

but,
everything cracked as im home.
gosh..!!!
HELLA~
juz leave me alone
pretend like u care..!
i've been as nice as i cant
i didnt cheat..!
aint bluf..!

LEAVE ME ALONE..!

ASSIGMENT fasa SETERUSNYA

MKT book Labeling - HELL..!
MKT eid advertisement - 20 %
MKT short notes - HELL...!
MKT company presentation - 80%

ACC tutorial - HELL..!

CTU  presentation slides - DONE..!

it's 1.30 am

im still awake..

the rest gone to sleep already..!

this is what we call sacrifies..

lol~

tomorrow : 

stay home..~

makan..~

melepak..~

on9.. ~

(if mood ma baik)

if not,

mall..!

malam : 

assigment n xtidur lagi..!

that is me..!

BUAH HATI

ape pown u yang terbaik

xkire macam mana me terluka pown

u akan ade dengan me

thought u nakal

but pape pown me tetap akan balik pada u

or u tetap akan balik pada me.

LOVE U..!

I DONT no y u nak jam yang same

but bile da capture macam  nie

sweet plak

he said : ur tangan is putih than me lah

hahaha..i want to hold ur hand 4ever..

RAYA ~

eh,bukak fb sume orang cite pasal raya.
bukak blog sume owang cite pasal raya gak
yang me nie bila nak cite pasal raya?
actually im not that TERUJA untuk sambut raya?
y?
several reason.

• nenda kedua belah pihak dah xde.
• pose tidah penoh..
• n bla..bla..bla..

but,

pape pown akan di selitkan sikit cite pasal my raya tahun nie

ma beli sepasang baju kurung wane (xtaw nak cakap wane ape)

~ she tried harder tokk carikan wane hitam~

kasut?

my sunshine sandal elok lagi..

~jangan membazir~

beg..tudung..?

xbeli

~gune mane ade je~

talking bout balik kampung.

i drived myself

beberapa kali mengantuk n agak ketengah

lucky me

nothing happend

~dad i da besar,lain kali jangan escord i lembab sangat~

di kampung?

sume macam biase

xde yang luar biase

kami..kami jugakx.

hahaha..

meriam??

not this year...

makanan?

suke nasi empet

tapi ma xbuat.

itu sahaja.

macam xmenarik.

n balik kl,

macam biase

akan lepakx mall..

THAT'S HOW I CELEBRATE MY RAYA..

mall..n mall..

my hometown.banyak storynye kat sini.huhuhu..mane satu my car~ NON.!

they are my buah hati.

waiting 4 the others.nak balik kl..spend bout 5 days kat kampung n nothing changed.

this is how me pegang the stereng. huuhu..kereta ape?~ KERETA API..!

HAMPIR

hari nie dah last puasa

baju raya - DONE

(ma beli ikot kecantikan tekstil di matanya)

kueh raya - DONE

(ma beli ikout kesedapan biskut di kerongkongnya)

rendang- DONE

(ma masak ikut kepakaran masakannya)

ketupat- DONE

(kami buat ikut suka jari kami semata-mata)

haha

since 19 years old

this is my first ketupat

macam xcaya

pergh..

p/s

abang saya baru sampai dari overseas

seolah2 cheras sangat jaoh dari pj nie

sanagt suka makan ketupat palas n nasi impit

tapi ma xsempat buat

kah3

THANKS ROOMATE

Bile xtaw nak cakap dengan sapa
kamu sudi dengar saya
bile xtaw nak kaco saya
kamu sudi di kaco..

i have no sis,
u have no sis,
but then u treat me like ur sis
how sweet it is

THANKS ROOMATE...!

ASSIGMENT

Da berapa hari balik

masih xsentuh pape pown

weyh sengal la terlampau

saya nak balik cuti dan raya dan lupekan semua keserabutan di kampus

sekali saya di tugaskan untuk kaji

advertistment raya..

xcukup dengan tu

pending,

• company milo dan ctu presentation
• wah terlalu serabut
• tag pada buku MKT
• short note untuk MKT
• ACC tutorial

wah..

 robot ke saya nie

NOP..!

nie la pelajar namanya..!!!!!

ok, kamu mintak sebulan sahaja.. juz go away for now.. hope u will get well soon..!

jangan luka kan saya untuk kali yang seterusnya..

BALIK RUMAH

Dengan penuh semangat yang berkobar-kobar

satu beg yang cukup besar untuk memuatkan 

1 almari baju siap dikenaskan.

wah,

nak balik..!

mom,dad..wait 4 me..!

pagi :

nak kasi dramatik la konon

jalan dengan pebuh yakinnye..

(macam biasa- sut itam jadi pilihan)

sekerat jalan- da mengah la weyh..!!!

tibe2 rase nak campak je beg nie dalam tasik

berat la plak..

make up sume caer kene peloh

atoyaie.

kalaw aku taw aku gune make up sendiri

xyah gune make up anis (mac)

jalan lagi.

jangan putus asa..!

eeeeeeeeeeerk..!

akhirnya sampai gak kat bus stop..

TIBA-TIBA..

sakit peruuuuuuuuuuut..!

xleyh bla..

lagi la bertambah lebat peloh nie.

nak di jadikan cerita,

pegy tandas n fone jatuh.

sepanjang perjalanan xdapat on.

so xdapat contact dad yang tengah sangat wiso kat uma 

(bile on gune fone lain kat uma ade 10 miss call)

what la..!

but pape pown thanks to shaza

(tolong jaga beg mase 2 3 kali aku gi toilet )

n thanks to dak domokx

(tiket)

roomates

(sahur yang sedap- makan sikit je)

dad

(fone baru -3g lagi tuh)

wah, mesti saya sangat comeyl dalam keadaan sakit perot nie. kalaw la bioleyh baring dalam bus tadi memang da baring da.. bus plak rase macam lambat gile. atoyaie..

PACKING

jubah (jadi kan baju raya)
- CHECK...!
blouse (senang nak gi open house) 
- CHECK..!
slack (pakai dengan blouse la ngoi)
- CHECK..!
stokin
 - CHECK..!
hand sock
-CHECK...!
tudung (untuk pakai je.beli baru kat KL)
 - DONE...!
buku ( raya pown kene study) 
- DAH..!
make up (wajib)
 - DAH..!
biskut (mane taw lapa dalam bus..! pose la ngoi..!) 
- DAH..!
laptop (wajib)
 - DAH..!
hand bag (xbawak pown xpe. ade lagi kat uma)
- DONE..!
duet (money is life)
- ESOK..! XDE ATM DALAM BILIK
ticket
- DAH. (kalaw x balik jalan kaki)
ear phone (dalam bus bosan)
 - DAH..!
pensil case (pinjam pensil adik)
 - SETLE..!
Quran (nadi kehidupan)
-ESOK..!
monster (xmuat beg) 
-erk, TERPAKSA TINGGAL..

sob..sob..

monster..!

cowie..!

da xmuat.

t cuti sem kite balik same2 ye..!

ROOMATES

Tiap ari gelakx sama-sama

buat kecoh sama-sama

nyanyi sama-sama

pergi bilik air sama-sama

tidur sama-sama

jaga sama-sama

basuh pinggan sama-sama

masak sama-sama

makan sama-sama

kacau junior sama-sama

pendek kata

SEMUA SAMA-SAMA..!

buek..!awak due sangan suke buli saya sebab saya suke buli awak berdua.

hahaha

REPUTASI

sorang pown da cukup mengkacau bilaukan hari aku

da cukup memporak perandakan masa depan aku

dah aku benci ko dari dulu

nak wat cam mana.

xpernah nak berubah

semua nak ambik mudah

maaf.

aku bukan owang macam tu

ade mase aku take easy

but most of

aku akan saratkan otak aku dengan ape yang di arahkan

tolong jangan tambah kebencian aku pada ko.

jaohkan diri ko dari aku.sumpah aku terlalu benci dengan ko.cukup la kepura-puraan yang aku da pamerkan selama nie.

erk.

dak domokx..

this song is for you.!

Harus bagaimana lagi
Dan terus begini
Dengarkan aku
Lihat ke mataku

Cukup sudah kau menghukum
Salahku tetap salahku
Benarkan ku berbicara
Agar bisa pulih semua

Namun harus sampai bila
Kau kan diam seribu bahasa

Chorus
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Fahamilah ku tak mampu terus tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Saat mata terpejam
Hanya kau ku terbayang
Menghapus semua segala rasa di jiwaku

Saat mata terbuka
Kamulah yang pertama
Tak mampu aku
Bayangkan
Hidup tanpa dirimu

Ulang Chorus

Aku memang bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Dan tapi dah ku sedari
Segala perit kau lalui
Ku terlupa kau terluka

Dan memang selalu
Aku bersalah
Selalu saja mengabaikan mu
Meninggalkan mu
Dan tetapi itulah aku sedari
Segala perit yang kau lalui
Kerna diriku yang terus hanyut

Maafkanlah ku tak bisa hidup tanpa kamu
Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila tiada mengganti
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

Bagaimana ku nanti
Bila kau tak di sisi
Yang ku ada hanya kamu saja

let me keep the reason