Rebah di pangkuan Madam MhG

Dari pagi rasa down. Dari pagi rasa kosong.
celik mata pandang syiling.
terus baring sampai matahari tegak atas katil.
tarik selimut kuatkan kipas main fone.
rasa putus asa.

Azan Zohor,
Bangun mandi dan bersiap,
Solat dan start enjin kereta.
pusing-pusing stereng then parking.
Panjat tangga, bagi salam dan tolak pintu.

Madam MhG,
Berdiri di dapur. (Macam biasa,rutin biasa)

rasa nak peluk nangis-nangis tapi tak pe,
diam dulu. pandang Madam puas-puas.

Madam shoot
"Kereta da bayar ke"
"Rumah da bayar ke"
"Duet cam mana"
"Survived macam mana"

Dalam hati

::Madam susah hati pasal survival aku rupenye::


Sengeh macam kerang busuk,
"semua ok. semua ada, semua settle. Ibu doakan aje"


Guess what,
The moment I came in to the house I'm having the whole world problems inside my head.

But,
The moment I came out,
All the problem was solved.


MasyaALLAH. !

Brothers and sister for those who having problem now, think no more and rush to your mum. Consider your problem solved.

::Cheers ::

IM WRITTING FOR THE SAKE OF MY FUTURE

Hey Guys, 

It quite sometimes since my last post. Its 2013.. bout the job. 

Ok let me shoot. Early today, I had a conversation with my so call bff (Firman) - of course im mentioning my best bic EVER.. !! I asked him if he can tell me who am I next 5 years and he said he cant tell. Its happen that i really wanted to know and I wish in 5 years i have some kind of dejavu of what happening today. 

then later its remind me of this blog which took ages since my last visit. I just changed the privacy back then to private so nobody can read it. but today i decided to run it as public.. I wanted to make it as my time capsule . Next 5 years I want to come to this date and see who am I today and who am I next day.

The moment I write this down my i open another tab for "viewing blog" and the music play on. Its some kind of the memories I have back then play together along with the song. Lego house - Ed Sheeran was the first song I introduce to AiHa, told him it is my fav song. Till now. 

I dont have any plan to change the song as the memories back then was so precious that impossible to bring back. I stood alone enjoying the song writing this pieces together with me mint tea (my fav tea) .. and ya.. its seems like taking me back to those day.. (if you know what i mean)

I don't know, its happen that i became very sentimental these days, remembering bout my past, then thinking bout my death.. wonder if anyone could ever remember me. 

Now, 10 September. 

I don't recall any event happened to me last years, last last years or even last last last years. So I afraid withing 5 years I will not remember who am I today. 

As for today, 

I am still an ordinary girl, staying alone in my "cave". Jobless with some kind of freelance work to survived. 

Am I thinking to much? 

::As time goes by we will realized we lost a lot of people we once knew ::