DOKTOR PELATIH INI AKAN JADI PAKAR SATU HARI NANTI

Almost 4 weeks passed.
Da sebulan. Sejak AiHa pakai title Dr. tu.
Deep down, saya bangga dengan doktor. I was there seeing how struggle you are untuk dapatkan title tu. Even masih baru doktor pelatih but I believe you will become somebody someday.

I know I should focus on my self but I cannot let your story become apart from my story. so, it seems like I risau kan you more than I risau myself. It very frustrated knowing that I cannot do more to help. I wish I can help. But the best and for the sake of your success I gotta believe in you and let you drive your self on your own.

Seorang ayah, apabila mengajar anak naik basikal dia cuma akan pegang pada peringkat permulaan. dan akan lepas secara perlahan-lahan. Same here, people said for the sake of your success I gotta believe in you. Believe that you can manage it all without me. I always believe you can. like I always do.

I wish I can ease the burden, help you manage your day like i used to do. But you are somebody now. I know i worried to much..

So doctor, starting now on let me help. Please allow me to help. How do I help? By give the wheel for you to drive and i just sit silently beside. I know you can. I believe in you, people believe in you your family believe in you.

Cheers. ~ Dont be so stress. ! always remember handling me is much more tougher than your job now. eceh ! haha !

Rebah di pangkuan Madam MhG

Dari pagi rasa down. Dari pagi rasa kosong.
celik mata pandang syiling.
terus baring sampai matahari tegak atas katil.
tarik selimut kuatkan kipas main fone.
rasa putus asa.

Azan Zohor,
Bangun mandi dan bersiap,
Solat dan start enjin kereta.
pusing-pusing stereng then parking.
Panjat tangga, bagi salam dan tolak pintu.

Madam MhG,
Berdiri di dapur. (Macam biasa,rutin biasa)

rasa nak peluk nangis-nangis tapi tak pe,
diam dulu. pandang Madam puas-puas.

Madam shoot
"Kereta da bayar ke"
"Rumah da bayar ke"
"Duet cam mana"
"Survived macam mana"

Dalam hati

::Madam susah hati pasal survival aku rupenye::


Sengeh macam kerang busuk,
"semua ok. semua ada, semua settle. Ibu doakan aje"


Guess what,
The moment I came in to the house I'm having the whole world problems inside my head.

But,
The moment I came out,
All the problem was solved.


MasyaALLAH. !

Brothers and sister for those who having problem now, think no more and rush to your mum. Consider your problem solved.

::Cheers ::

IM WRITTING FOR THE SAKE OF MY FUTURE

Hey Guys, 

It quite sometimes since my last post. Its 2013.. bout the job. 

Ok let me shoot. Early today, I had a conversation with my so call bff (Firman) - of course im mentioning my best bic EVER.. !! I asked him if he can tell me who am I next 5 years and he said he cant tell. Its happen that i really wanted to know and I wish in 5 years i have some kind of dejavu of what happening today. 

then later its remind me of this blog which took ages since my last visit. I just changed the privacy back then to private so nobody can read it. but today i decided to run it as public.. I wanted to make it as my time capsule . Next 5 years I want to come to this date and see who am I today and who am I next day.

The moment I write this down my i open another tab for "viewing blog" and the music play on. Its some kind of the memories I have back then play together along with the song. Lego house - Ed Sheeran was the first song I introduce to AiHa, told him it is my fav song. Till now. 

I dont have any plan to change the song as the memories back then was so precious that impossible to bring back. I stood alone enjoying the song writing this pieces together with me mint tea (my fav tea) .. and ya.. its seems like taking me back to those day.. (if you know what i mean)

I don't know, its happen that i became very sentimental these days, remembering bout my past, then thinking bout my death.. wonder if anyone could ever remember me. 

Now, 10 September. 

I don't recall any event happened to me last years, last last years or even last last last years. So I afraid withing 5 years I will not remember who am I today. 

As for today, 

I am still an ordinary girl, staying alone in my "cave". Jobless with some kind of freelance work to survived. 

Am I thinking to much? 

::As time goes by we will realized we lost a lot of people we once knew ::